How to pray when you can't change your circumstances

8:07 am Wendy van Eyck 0 Comments


Christ lives in me. The life you see me living is not “mine,” but it is lived by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I am not going to go back on that. Galations 2:20b (MSG)

Xylon's scan is coming up again. It's always hard. 

It's the one thing no one told me about cancer that it never goes away. After 18 chemo sessions, a stem cell transplant, radiation, three relapses and now two clear scans I imagined it would be over. But it isn't.

Next Tuesday Xylon has his scan. A day or two after that the doctor will call with his results.

It is nerve wrecking.

I find myself praying constantly, "Lord, let it be clear." Part of me thinks I should be praying, “Lord, take me to the place of your greatest blessing” but I can’t find it in me to do that. So instead I’m just praying my heart out and trusting that will be enough. 

Yesterday I was thinking about the scan when I read a quote by a writer and missionary I greatly respect, Elisabeth Elliot, 
"The secret is Christ in me, not me in a different set of circumstances.”

‘Okay, Jesus, I’m hearing you,’ I thought.

Jesus didn't promise rescue from hard things but his company through hard things. (tweet this

As Tim Hughes wrote (and as I’ll now be singing till we hear the results) it has to be:
God in my hoping 
There in my dreaming 
God in my watching 
God in my waiting 

God in my laughing 
There in my weeping 
God in my hurting 
God in my healing 

Christ in me 
Christ in me 
Christ in me the hope of glory 
You are everything

I know when it comes to this scan that there is nothing I can do to change the results, to manipulate the circumstances all I can do is allow, 
Christ in me to be my hope in this set of circumstances, 
Christ in me to be my hope in the midst of cancer results,
Christ in me the hope of Glory be my everything. 

And when I can’t pray, Lord, let your will be done here, I’ll be using worship as act of war against the enemy of my soul, and singing 
“Christ in me, Christ in me, Christ in me the hope of glory, you are everything.”

Ponder: Have you been hoping for a different set of circumstances rather than hoping in Christ in you? 

Prayer: Christ in me the hope of Glory be my everything. 

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