When You Can’t Trust Your Feelings
Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the LORD, who has compassion on you. Isaiah 54:10 (NIV)
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It’s been two months since my husbands last chemotherapy session.
It will be another month before we meet with the doctor and he gives us the preliminary results of whether or not the chemo worked.
This pause, this breathing space, has given me time to reflect on the journey so far, on the ups and downs that characterized most of this year.
It has given me time to realize that what got us through most days was the knowledge of how faithful God is.
The thing is, in the midst of cancer, or any type of hardship or suffering, it can be hard to feel God’s faithfulness.
Most days I didn’t get through on how I was feeling or what my experience of God was that day.
Because our feelings often lie.
I had to learn to trust my knowledge of God rather than my feelings about him.
I realize I got through on what I know to be true about who God is.
I got through by whispering his promises to my heart and speaking these truths my soul even when I didn’t feel them to be true.
I got through because I realized that when you can’t trust your feelings you can trust the words of the one that has compassion on you.
I got through because no matter how many times my world gets turned upside down, the Lord has promised that his love for me will not be shaken, and his peace will not be removed from me.
When Isaiah wrote about mountains being shaken and hills disappearing, he wasn’t only referring to the geographical landscape changing, I think he was referring to our emotions going up and down, to our hearts breaking and tears falling and our worlds crashing.
I think in the midst of all that he’s reminding us that it’s true: God will remain the same when our circumstances change.
And just knowing that truth can change how I am feeling.
I’ve realized that my feelings can’t be relied on the way God can. (<-- Share this on Twitter)
When God said he’d always be there – no matter how you feel – you can believe it.
What are you feeling worried about right now? Ask God to help you trust him and his promises when you can’t trust your feelings.