Thursday, 30 October 2014

What to remember when God is silent

When God is silent
But for me it is good to be near God; I have made the Lord God my refuge, that I may tell of all your works. Psalm 73:28 (ESV)

Xylon is having another scan today. 

It should just be a routine one. It should just be another clear scan. It should be the second clear scan after 18 chemo sessions, a stem cell transplant and 20 radiation appointments.

But "shoulds” don't hold a lot of weight when it comes to cancer. 

Even faith sometimes struggles to make the nagging fears that this part of our story isn’t finished.

Add to all of this the stress of moving house, and town, and renovating. And all of it can feel quite debilitating.

Over the years we've learnt that these scans are stressful times for us. I know I begin snapping for no reason. I know that Xylon and I have less grace for the other. And I know that we'll probably end up arguing about something silly.

I also know that my presence matters during these times. I've learnt there aren't words to say in these days. 

I've discovered that sometimes silence and a hug are the best way to say, "I'm with you. We'll get through this."

I don’t say a lot but I’m there. 

What to do when God is silentSometimes I'll burrow in as close as I can to Xylon and let our hopes and fears tighten around us. Other times, I'll keep myself busy in the lounge or kitchen because I can tell he needs the space and time to process, to be alone.

And all of this has got me thinking about God and his presence in my life.

I sometimes mistake God's silence for his absence. (tweet this

Sometimes I think God is only present when I can feel him but maybe God is with me all the time. 

Maybe when it's quiet it's because God's sitting beside me, sharing the experience that words are inadequate for. 

Perhaps God is simply keeping himself busy in the other room but that doesn’t mean he isn’t with me. 

What I'm learning is that God is never to far away to hear me say, "Can you come sit with me awhile?"

And sometimes God’s presence is the quiet, silent type that means more than a thousand words. (tweet this

Ponder: Do you believe that God is always with you even when you can't see, hear or feel him?

Prayer: Thank you for always being near enough to hear my cry.


I'm turning 32 on 2 November. And would like to ask you to give at least R32 ($3,20 or 2EUROS) in lieu of a birthday gift to help fund a bicycle for kid who walk 5km or more to school. 

I’m blown away that together we’ve funded one and a half bicycles but let’s keep going! 

If you’re up for it (and live in South Africa) you can donate here via EFT or credit card. 
If you live outside of South Africa and would like to donate please follow this link so you can donate in your own currency and just put “For Wendy’s birthday” in the note box. Or you can donate via paypal: donate@qhubeka.org and put “Wendy’s birthday” as a reference. 

If you'd like to know more about how Qhubeka changes lives with bicycles go to http://www.qhubeka.org/

Find out more about why I want to do this here

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Monday, 27 October 2014

It’s (almost) my Birthday and I need your help

bible verse about poverty
Look around you: Everything you see is God’s—the heavens above and beyond, the Earth, and everything on it…God, your God, is the God of all gods, he’s the Master of all masters, a God immense and powerful and awesome. He doesn’t play favorites, takes no bribes, makes sure orphans and widows are treated fairly, takes loving care of foreigners by seeing that they get food and clothing. Deuteronomy 10:14, 17-18 (MSG)

Currently my life is consumed with two things: 
1) packing up and moving house 
2) sifting through photos and telling stories for a non-profit, called Qhubeka, of half a million kids in South Africa who walk for an hour or more to school each day.

As I've been packing I've realised how much stuff I have. And how I don't need anything more. With my birthday less than a week away I've decided to ask people help me fund a bicycle for kids who have to walk to school rather than give me gifts.

As a kid I was privileged to have parents that fetched and carried me to school. Many kids in South Africa don't have that privilege. They walk to school out of necessity. 

Birthday GiftAs I sift through the photos of the kids Qhubeka has provided bicycles for so far one thing strikes me time and time again: kids will be dressed in their “Sunday best” yet they won't be wearing socks. 

These kids walk to school without socks. 

The kids who we give bicycles to have nothing, and I have enough stuff that I'm throwing out things I don't need by the box.

I just filled five black bags with clothes. These were clothes that my husband and I no longer wear. 

I took the bags and gave them to someone who needs them much more than I. 

As I did this I was reminded of Deuteronomy 10:14: Look around you: Everything you see is God’s—the heavens above and beyond, the Earth, and everything on it. 

Everything is God’s yet I hang on to stuff. 

I act like life is a competition where the person with the most stuff wins. 

Life isn’t a competition. It’s a gift. (tweet this)

I want to change. 
I want to live my life differently. 
I want to give more than I take. 

Life isn't a competition quoteI'm turning 32 on 2 November. And would like to ask you to give at least R32 ($3,20 or 2EUROS) in lieu of a birthday gift to help fund a bicycle for kid who walks to school.

My gift list this year is short: I want a bicycle. 

A bicycle that can #GiveHope to a child and give them a chance to attend school more and achieve their dreams.

Will you join me on this journey? Will you give a little bit of excess away? 

If you’re up for it (and live in South Africa) you can donate here via EFT or credit card
If you live outside of South Africa and would like to donate please follow this link so you can donate in your own currency and just put “For Wendy’s birthday” in the note box.

If you'd like to know more about how Qhubeka changes lives with bicycles go to http://www.qhubeka.org/

Ponder: How does the thought that God everything is God’s change how you view your stuff?

Prayer: Lord, help me to live life giving more than I take. 

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Thursday, 23 October 2014

Jesus is still reckless with hope

Matthew 28:16-21 devotional
Meanwhile, the eleven disciples were on their way to Galilee, headed for the mountain Jesus had set for their reunion. The moment they saw him they worshiped him. Some, though, held back, not sure about worship, about risking themselves totally.
Jesus, undeterred, went right ahead and gave his charge: “God authorized and commanded me to commission you: Go out and train everyone you meet, far and near, in this way of life, marking them by baptism in the threefold name: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Then instruct them in the practice of all I have commanded you. I’ll be with you as you do this, day after day after day, right up to the end of the age.” Matthew 28:16-20 (MSG)

Sometimes I’m not sure what God is doing. 

Some things in life just don’t seem to make sense. 

I think the disciples must have felt that way when they Jesus came to have a reunion with them for after he rose from the dead. 

I think that I would have been amongst the disciples holding back, not risking themselves totally. 

Which is why I love that the very next verse says, “Jesus, undeterred, went right ahead…”

Jesus is reckless with hopeI love that Jesus doesn’t wait for me to be in exactly the right place in my life before he shares my purpose with me. 

When I hold myself back, out of uncertainty, Jesus is still reckless with hope. (tweet this)

When I'm unsure Jesus still moves toward me.

Jesus doesn’t wait for me to sort my life, my heart or my future, before he calls me to live for him. (tweet this)

So often, I think Jesus will only use me when I have all my ducks in a row, but as I read these verses this morning, I was realised that there is one thing that will never stop Jesus: Me. 

Jesus isn’t phased by my lack of faith, my belief in my ability, or whether I think I’m good enough. (tweet this)

Jesus won’t let whatever holds me backing from risking everything fully for him, stop him from inviting me to know life, life and more life

Instead Jesus just stands there saying, “Go, live the life you’ve heard me speak about, and I’ll be with you every step of the way.”

Ponder: What holds you back from living the life Jesus is calling you too? Do you think knowing Jesus isn’t deterred by those things would help you move towards it.

Pray: Jesus, help me to be undeterred like you by the things I think hold me back. 

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